Life Lately

Life | The Merrythought
There’s this moment that comes almost every day. I carefully walk down our wooden stairs, making sure not to step on the creaky parts. And when I get downstairs I want to run outside and do a few victory laps. Because I have two napping children, which means I will get at least 45 minutes to myself. And then I get totally overwhelmed. Because there is so much I want to squeeze into that 45 minutes I don’t even know where to begin. Life is a balancing act, so they say and I am finding it harder than ever to keep my balance these days. The thing that often sends me toppling over is my own unrealistic expectations.. I want to be a loving and supportive wife. I want to be a loving and attentive mother. I want to be a thoughtful and fun-loving friend. I want to document our lives with amazing pictures.I want to bake bread from scratch. I want to write killer blog posts. I want to handwrite thoughtful letters. I want to be active and exercise. I want to be a world class knitter [ok, I’d be happy if I could just finish a scarf for-crying-in-the-sink]. I want to have a healthy and hot meal on the table each night. ..with fresh fruits and vegetables straight from our garden. Truth is, I accomplish many of these things. But never all at once and that constantly has me feeling like I’m failing at life. Because let’s be honest.. if I’m preparing a delicious dinner, I’m not being an attentive mother and chances are the kids are playing in the toilet or eating ladybugs. Sometimes, what I really need is to stop focusing on what I’m not doing and simply be. Marla

“All desires but one can fail. The only desire that is infallibly fulfilled is the desire to be loved by God.” Thomas Merton

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  • Friday, June 7, 2013 - 11:06 am

    Bethany - Love this. You’re doing well… xxReplyCancel

    • Friday, June 7, 2013 - 10:01 pm

      marla - thanks for the kind words!ReplyCancel

  • Monday, June 10, 2013 - 12:44 pm

    Elizabeth Manna - I so could have written this post. Balance is something that I’m struggling with BIG time here!

    Like you, I want to do all those things, essentially everyday.

    My perfect day looks something like this: all meals homemade and cooked with care, bake some bread and cookies and chicken stock from scratch, scrapbook (I’m currently doing project life), go to spin class, tend the chickens and garden, read the 10 books that are on my nightstand, take the kids (i have a 10 and 13 year old) outside for a nature hike complete with them taking photos of the adventure (or any other fabulous means of quality time with them), spend alone time with the hubby, and take a bubble bath. Oh and let’s not forget having the cleaning and laundry caught up.
    every.day.
    or something like this every day.

    I get frustrated when I can’t fit all this in. When I find some free time, I tend to walk around in circles in a panic b/c…where to start? What should I hurry up and do? GAH!!

    I’m starting to, kind of, let myself off the hook a little bit and try to accomplish just one or two things that I really want to do a day (I work outside the home, so one or two is doable right now). It’s working and I feel a wee bit better, but I still long for the time that I’m able to do most of my list in one day 🙂ReplyCancel

  • Tuesday, June 18, 2013 - 3:18 pm

    Marlene @ Jade and Fern - This is beautiful! You can check writing killer blog posts off your list. We just all need to breathe sometimes…ReplyCancel

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